"2020, the door, PLEASE!"

Hey my Little G's, we all know what type of year it has been so I don't think you need a recap. So instead of preaching about the negatives, I would like you to know that I have had a GREAT year. My consistency with blogging and my website has been amazing; even when I fell short for a couple of months, I kept pushing. I came back better, had a mid-year restart, and fulfilled my weekly quotes and social presence. The growth of my blog has baffled me, I have gained triple the amount of subscribers to my website and my insta has been booming (there's a post with 2k likes🤯) showing me that being passionate and following through on your hobbies and business will yield results. I even started a new venture, which I am really excited about, like guys I have so many ideas for this podcast you don't even know but we will get to that later.

My relationships have grown stronger. Being stuck with only a limited amount people consistently forces you to either love them or grow weary of them and let's just say, teamwork is really where it's at because I love the way my family was able to band together during this time.

I was also shown who the invaluable people in my life are. It is very easy to have 20- 30 friends but it is sometimes hard realizing their place in your life. In the last couple of years, I realized that I was placing people in incorrect places, calling acquaintances close friends, and mistaking close friends as a part of my chosen family. This year's restrictions forced me to realize there are people who I can live without, those I need to love from a distance, and even those I have outgrown. While revealing my true chosen family and the other close friends and acquaintances that contribute positivity and growth to my life.

I saved the best relationship for last; the one I have with myself. The confidence and self-love that I have gained this year cannot be counted or given a numerical value. Everything about me amazes me. My body is amazing, I smile whenever I see it, I am too comfortable with being naked (I honestly don't need lounge clothes anymore.) The skin I have had a battle with most of my life, though it still shows its scars and a pimple or two may still pop out, is luminous, dark, golden and one of my best features. My little quirks are fucking amazing, I make random noises at any given moment, my laugh is a little too loud, I am extremely expressive, my sarcasm can either make you laugh or cry. I have become so unapologetically in love with myself that other's negative views of me fall short. This is not to say that I don't check myself when my attitude is outrageous, I am not caring for my body and negatively impacting someone else, but I am now able to see the actual flaws correctly and take the correct steps to rectify the problems.

So yes, I am done with 2020, but also grateful for it and will not waste the gift I was granted while others were robbed of theirs. I will recognize my blessings; a roof over my head, continuous income, amazing support system, family, and bring them with a joyful heart into the new year.

There will be a new year's post about goals and all that jazz tomorrow (Y'all know how I feel about planning.😁🥰 ) but today I wanna look back and be happy and feel that raw joy for a new chapter. I would love to wish everyone a happy new year, my prayer and love for those who have lost someone special this year and may be going through a hard time. Things will get better because we believe it and will strive for it.

Get ready 2021 because I am

"ending with my strength to begin".

-Mes. G