Week 5 = Catfished

Hello Little G's,

I'm back and I'm better... for real this time. I need to do a life update from my last rant post to now but that will come next week or the week after.

What I will do however is give a weekly recap, I'm going to try to do this every Sunday; fill you guys in on how I felt this past week, what new thing life deciding to test me on, and at the very least let you know what I did. And as the title says this past week was a rollercoaster so buckle up.

Of course, the first one has to be extra so bear with me guys. The week started pretty well besides dealing with the remaining snow from last Saturday's snowstorm. Living in New York for almost 9 years I can handle the snow and cold, however, the MTA (subway system) apparently can not. They did not clean in front of the train station so I missed my train since I did not want to do the slip and slide and worse the trains were extremely delayed. (INSERT EYEROLL) That being said, work on Monday was really good, I work with kids and I love it, I came home and had a pretty chill night. Tuesday's commute to work was much better and I had a meeting that made my week since it was to establish a new role at my job that I am very, VERY, excited about. I had all these tasks to accomplish later that afternoon but I was extremely tired for some miraculous reason, so nothing got done until my friend kidnapped me and took me to our friend's house much later.

"Planning night", as I like to think about it was very fun and productive. My friend made porridge, which we all enjoyed while talking and planning our life away. I worked on my planner and various tasks while my two friends made vision boards. Before you congratulate us, note that we were supposed to start at 6 but did not begin "planning" until 9-10 pm and did not finish until minutes to 4 am. Even though it was a long day (6:30 am to 4 am), it was the most productive day I had all week and it give me all the social energy I needed. I even remembered to post a poem, which is something I have not done in almost a year. Don't forget to check it out right here.

You would think that my body would show me some love for all the work I put in but no! I woke up at 7 am. SEVEN AM 😑! Even though I did not need to get ready for work until 10:30-11. Anyways the remainder of Wednesday and Thursday were good. My friend made chili and her chili is amazing, just thinking about it makes me happy and giddy inside 😊😊. I had productive days at work, I just wish that I was more productive when I came home especially because that was my goal for the week but my schedule is also not consistent at the moment so I have remembered (2 seconds ago) to be kinder to myself since I accomplished most of the goals just not at the exact time I wanted to. Friday was a bit interesting, work was a little hectic, I have no idea what was happening with those kids that day but it wasn't bad. There is a lot of growth, bad luck, misunderstandings, disconnects, and reconnections happening within my friend circle that bothered me but I need to remember not to internalize things while offering help or even a listening ear. YOUNG ADULTING IS HARD! And life was really showing that.

Saturday was very chill, too chill actually. I was in bed or just laying about reading all day and while I love the fact that I am an avid reader, it can really eat up my day. I got none of the tasks set for that day accomplished but the 3 book series I read was funny and made my mood light. And now we are at Sunday, so though the week was a pretty even balance of good, annoying, and bad things, today added much weight to the annoying and bad bucket. Church today was great, the service livened my spirit and the sermon was really good. Of course, the devil was mad and had to highlight my financial struggles as soon as I came home; and as much as I tried, my mood was a bit sour for a long while... well until I started this post and spoke to my amazing friend circle.

My takeaway from Week 5 is that I just need to keep trying, even though I was catfished into thinking my week would be fine nothing will be solved in being mad at the world or forces that be. I can only continue to take the good with the bad and maneuver as best I can. It is also Black History Month and I can never have a sour mood for too long in this month. But please leave comments and let me know how your week was, did you stumble or thrive?

I am hoping for a brighter week for myself and all of you as well. See ya next time and keep living life one atom at a time.

- Mes. G